“When you make the two into one, and when you make the inner like the outer and the outer like the inner… then you will enter the Father’s domain.” saying of Jesus, Gospel of Thomas 22:4,7

While I was in the midst of an existential crisis at about the age of 22, I had a dream which symbolized the essence of what this site is all about.  In this dream, I was swimming in a lake, making my way towards a rocky shore with a Bible in one hand, and paddling through the water with the other.  As I struggled to make it to shore, I tried to be careful the Bible was not touched by the water when I noticed a nun sitting at the edge of the shore.  She looked at me, rolled her eyes, and then extended her hand, saying, “Just throw it at me.” I tossed the Bible to the nun, and then continued my swim with much greater ease, without the burden of the book, in the opposite direction, away from the shore…

This site is a kind of documentation of my journey in awareness.  At times I will correct, clarify, or amend something I may have stated in a previous writing because as my awareness deepens, so too does my insight and view of what is.  While I am not a “scientist” in the strict sense of the word, as I am not particularly versed in scientific terms, theories, etc., I have an immense passion in examining human nature, our motivations, what moves us to be as we are, and how we came to be.  Religion is one way to “answer” these questions.  Awareness is quite another.  This site is about awareness, and about looking at Life honestly and truthfully, without illusion.

I, like you, have always sought the life-giving waters of Truth. I hope you will find the words on this site helpful as you question, seek, and find. The words on this site are like my own “mantra” if you will… a catalyst for seeking Truth, not the Truth itself, as God, Truth, awareness of the Oneness of All can never be any word, thought, or anything of time, but only reflected in these things, as Truth is limitless and beyond the illusions of time and space. As from the saying of Jesus quoted above from the Gospel of Thomas, when you make the two into One, then you will enter the Father’s domain, which is awareness of the Oneness of All – awareness we are ultimately not our dualistic egos with which we almost always identify, but All and One… the Oneness of All…

I was raised Catholic, and have always loved the Truth reflected in so much of Christian scripture, but have never been satisfied with, nor convinced of traditional Christian dogma and theology, its beliefs, and their interpretations of “inerrant” scripture. There must be a separation of the “wheat” from the “chaff,” the true from the untrue, when looking at all things in life, even the reading of scripture and the traditional interpretations we are so often taught within traditional church settings.  Unfortunately, virtually all traditional church institutions emphasize only our unwavering belief, and not our questioning.  To question is to seek the Truth.  For All must be questioned to find the Truth.  The fact is, there is a vast difference between reasonable doubt, and unreasonable “faith.”

I chose the title “The Mystical Voice” for this site because the word “mysticism” means “the pursuit of communion with, identity with, or conscious awareness of an ultimate reality…”  Indeed, it is not belief we are seeking, but direct experience and awareness of the Uncreated, All, the Oneness of All, and to realize it is this which is our True identity, not our limited, illusory, dualistic egos, with its faulty creations and belief structures.  And while it is exciting to discover Truth by ever seeking and ever questioning, it can be a lonely path, as so few heed the call to question all they believe to approach the Real.  As said by Jesus in Matthew 7:14…”small is the gate and narrow the road which leads to life, and only a few find it.”  That is another reason I created this site… to be a support and encouragement for all who are seeking the Oneness of All, God, Truth, Love, or whatever other name we give for Reality.  This site is for those who are seeking Reality outside the usual, often unfulfilling means of a traditional church setting or dogmatic following.  I encourage all who feel drawn to the Life-giving waters of Truth to come and drink… for there is no greater gift than awareness of who we Are…

John Cross

…Let us walk on our Journey together….

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